Rest...

Sometimes you just need to slow down a bit...

I know I haven't been writing much lately — at least not here. I've been finishing out my CPE residency. I've been dealing with some depression/grief/transition/changes/being-a-human-being. I've missed writing, but I've been thankful for the other ways in which I've spent my time: talking with friends on the phone or Skype, binge watching Heroes, West Wing, and some of my favorite movies, going out for dinner or staying in and cooking, eating way too much chocolate and trying to forget that, technically, I'm still on Weight Watchers.

I've been at a loss for words lately. Even with many of my patients, I find myself speechless. I'm about to start making some decisions about the next chapter of my life, and it scares me and excites me more than I've experienced. I've changed these last few months. I feel calmer. I feel more like myself. I've made decisions about relationships and vocation that I never thought I would have the courage to make. I can look in the mirror and smile more authentically than ever before. I'm on good terms with my mom. I'm back in church. Frankie and I are being more honest with each other than we've been able to be in the past. Some things are hard, and some things are easy.

I hope to be back soon, writing about things that are important to me. In the meantime, I hope this finds you well, and that you know I still love y'all.

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photo credit: João Lavinha (via Flickr)